Tag: new year

The New Year waits

I love this lazy time between Christmas and New Year’s Day.  It is the time when I can finally relax and enjoy Christmas.  From Thanksgiving to Christmas, time and responsibilities come at me like a loud, fast freight train.  I cannot work, run, clean, cook, fast enough… and that holiday train catches up to me when, like a character from a thriller, I finish it all just in the nick of time.  By Christmas morning I am bleary-eyed and dizzy with exhaustion. So, this time, this languorous space, is when I catch up on sleep and I eat whatever I want, open a book, shop for a new pair of shoes online with my Amazon gift card, write reviews of the make up received in Birchboxes, and admire my new socks. IMG_4193

This is when I recharge.  In the frenzy of preparation for this holiday, I seldom get to truly enjoy it, so this time is Christmas to me. Unfortunately, the rest of the world thinks that Christmas ends on Christmas day.  The radio station immediately stops playing holiday music :(.  My neighbors throw their naked trees into the street and take down their lights and wreaths.  I am saddened by this and I turn to my itunes library to continue my personal holiday right on through to the Epiphany on Jan. 6th [and, honestly, sometimes longer].

This is perhaps my favorite time of year because of the feast of possibility. Saturdays are my favorite days for this reason.  They are generally the only day when there are no responsibilities on the calendar, so they dawn bright with possibility.  For an eternal optimist, this is the piece de resistance- possibility in all its glittering glory.  This time of year, when we put the past behind us, reflect on what went well and what went wrong, and then leave it behind; when we look toward a ribbon of road that twists off into the horizon just ever so slightly.. giving us nothing but miles and miles of hope.

So, I spend these last few days of 2015, mesmerized by the lights on my tree.  FullSizeRender

This year’s unseasonably warm weather has also found me contemplating the evening sky from Bean’s front porch.  IMG_4089

A new year waiting is the best kind of blank canvas.  Happy 2016!



Here’s to 2014

Resolutions.  I had not planned to make one or any this year, but people kept asking and that got me to thinking.  I really don’t like making them because I don’t like failing, it’s the perfectionist in me.  Last year I planned to read the bible through the One Year Bible, and Lord that didn’t last long at all.  Turns out the bible is really tedious even in chronological order, although I did have some epiphanies in Job.  Last year was really a fabulous year in so many ways.  I would love this year to be as good or better, so I thought maybe I might look at any regrets I have from the past year.  Here is what I came up with in no particular order.

  • I regret the time I wasted on Facebook and playing Candy Crush [even though I have only been playing this frustrating and inane game for a few weeks now].
  • I regret not writing that book or even starting that book.
  • I regret not creating more- art, writing, possibilities, connections, etc….  I highly regret doing more consuming than creating.  I try very hard not to acquire more things, but someone I continue to acquire them.  I want to let things go, not collect them.  I want to create art and collect memories of experiences.  
  • I regret wasting time feeling angry at people- two major figures come to mind here.  One of the objects of my anger is a woman I barely know who continues to vex and hurt someone I deeply love and the other is a man who I should know very well, but he did such a poor job at one of the most important jobs ever given to him, that I do not.  
  • I regret any times I became short tempered with the people who I love or serve.

So, those are the big ones and I will shape my resolutions around them– to be kind to others even when I don’t feel my best, to create more and consume less, to funnel my anger into art instead of the atmosphere or my mouth through poor food choices, to move more and sit less, to find joy in experiences and connections.  If I can do these things, I know 2014 will exceed 2013.  Happy New Year.